don't give up

Butt Prints in the Sand

One night I had a wondrous dream, One set of footprints there was seen,
The footprints of the Goddess they were, But mine were not along the shore.

But then some stranger prints appeared, and I asked Her, "What have we here?
These prints are large and round and neat, But much too big to be from feet."

"My child," She said in somber tones, "For miles I carried you alone.
I challenged you to walk in faith, But you refused and made me wait."

"You would not learn, you would not grow, The walk of faith, you would not know,
So I got tired, I got fed up, And there I dropped you on your butt.

"Because in life, there comes a time When one must fight, and one must climb,
When one must rise and take a stand, Or leave their butt prints in the sand."


-Author Uknown

bless this food

Bless this food which might make mes sick, when I don't break bread with others.
Bless this food which I trust my friends and family made to nourish and sustain me.
Bless this food which I am about to receive.
Bless this food which I didn't watch being made and I myself didn't confirm is Gluten Free.
Bless me and this food, so that I may still take sustenance and hopefully someday, not have fear with each mouthful.

If someone didn't know I was Celiac, they would think I had an eating disorder. I stress about food and mistrust of chef's and friends that mean well, but don't check ingredients.

I stress about being a gracious recipient of food, and I stress about wasting what I don't trust.

Kindness breaks my heart

after a rough day, my boss took a break and went off to do errands. He stopped a local Small chocolate/confectioner factory/shop, and picked up three pieces of delicacy to cheer me up.

I almost cried at his kindness, except, two months ago, I stopped there myself, to check on gluten free options...
Oaks, does not have anything gluten free.
they dust the surfaces for everything they prepare, with white flour!

I graciously explained that he had been so truly kind and gratefully thought he was fabulous, but even though I wouldn't eat them, I couldn't accept due to them being so truly tempting.
I felt awful. truly awful, and yet grateful.
What dos a girl do to be gracious? I could have accepted them, but then I would have had contaminated candy, deliciously tempting me.. and god knows, I was stressed... there are moments of weakness that leave me stupid...

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